Its a big, big world, and im gonna show you all of it.

Sometimes you just need the world to stop. To just pause for a while. To give you time to think. To take in the world and all that's happening in it. To run away from a life you hate.

This life is hard and lonely. And sometimes you begin to wonder if it truly has a purpose.

Our lives mean nothing in the long run. In a hundred to two hundred years will anyone remember your name? You could become the next Audrey Hepburn or Leonardo dicaprio, but after a while everyone will forget what you did in this world. You may find the cure to cancer, but maybe only a couple of years later someone will out do you, and you won't matter anymore. Our lives mean nothing... But, I don't think that should stop you from trying to become and accomplish everything possible. After all, you are the one that will look back on your life in your dying moments and have to be somewhat happy with what you see.




My brother finally did it. He's never coming back. I don't know what to do anymore.

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

Its when your heart just aches because you feel too much. And its so much worse than physical pain because its so hard to get rid of. You only have one feeling and thats sadness, and all you do is cry because it all seems so hopeless. You cry yourself to sleep at night, abd then in the morning you get up, put your uniform and makeup on and head off to school. Dressed like everyone else, blending into the crowed. You smile and laugh and be loud and out there; because well lets face it... No one ever expects the ones that seem so god damn happy.

And then there are those other days. Theyre worse than the ones full of overwhelming sadness. There the days when you feel nothing, because youd rather feel sadness then nothjng at all. To feel like there is no life left in you. To feel as though its all been taken away, leaving your bodu empty. And you cant cry, or be sad. Just nothing. And nothing is what can hurt you the most.